back in the saddle....sorta

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I have been seriously and painfully sidetracked. I think in about 30 days or less I should be at a clearing. We are moving hopefully at the end of this weekend. Back to my home. The kids are ecstatic. The kids will miss the space and peace, but they truly miss friends and family to share it with. I miss being able to share our homeschool, and life trials with our christian brother and sisters. Plus when I need a break grandma is just a phone call away. I have high hopes for this move, I have some big plans, I am anxious. Wednesday I begin interview for jobs that will be 3rd shift. Since I have to work, this shift works best for our family, it allows us to school, go out in field service, spend time together and assist in making a living. I look forward to most is help getting out in service with 7 kids. That has been a little taxing. I am ready.

Field Trip

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We headed to a Bee Farm on Thursday. It was a older gentleman with about 7 hives, so a small production, but it was nice because he kept many of this processes simple as well. He had a theory on Colony Collapse. He stated that quite a few farmers thought it was due to cell phones. It is not that far fetched. A quick Google search turned this up.

Here are some pictures from the adventures:

Quiet Confessions

This evening I read a post here. I found myself laughing aloud and they wonderful way she expressed herself.

I think I also laughed out loud because I say myself with these same emotions. I can become quietly envious of the mother who enjoys sending her child/ren to school and how wonderful her family unit works with it. How about the fellow homeschooling families with the never ending supply of funds to buy the latest and greatest curriculum, class, or co op. And of course I am so hating all those women who can come up with a wonderful rounded loaf of bread. Don't even get me started with the way I feel with those hip mamas who look immaculate in their never stained, always fitting clothes.

Right now it is about 7pm when I hit my almost melting point. Everyone to bed, please....just let mommy's brain rest for a moment. All these thoughts begin to sit in my head and they get bigger and bigger.

I hate when I allow things to fester and bottle up even if only in my brain. I can make even the most beautiful day seem like hurricane force winds are heading my way. And of course it is usually some other person's fault.

After a hard day at work, dh husband wanted to go for a walk. DD#5 was up and active, as well as the boy baby and actually everyone else, so I was up to a midnight walk. DH decided to pack up the rambunctious boy baby of mine, full of graham cracker crumbs and all. He wanted to give me a break. AHHHH....so it doesn't take books and boxes of gadgets and gizmos galore. No fancy name pants here, but if I can get 30 minutes with a hot tall cup of (home made) hot chocolate, and the sincere deep loving eyes of said husband. I think I'm doing all right.

BTW I didn't tell you one of my wonderful brothers sent some items to us he wasn't using anymore. UPS delievered a PowerMac G4, and a Playstation 2.

Truly I can't complain......but I'm sure I'll find something to frown about tomorrow...hehe...

What we did last night

DS2 is full of energy and ideas. If we, his parents, went missing, he would be the 9 year old, who would be sure that he could survive, quite happily, without us.

Most mornings he has a list of items, menus, excursions, and even lesson plans, that he truly expects the entire family will work on and go through.

Needless to say this can be grating on my temple. However, as I am trying to demonstrate more of a Christlike personality within my own house, I am attempting to see how these leadership skills can be encouraged to do good.

Last night, after dinner, DS decided at about 8pm he should create a store outside, bake brownies and he would serve us all. So I graciously agreed.











Funny thing DS2 was so busy I think I only got him in one picture. He went to bed happy, and so did I.

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Stressed but moving

Today was an interesting, tiring day. My mood was much like the weather.

Our day began relatively early, after dropping ds2 off at school, the rest of us headed to a potter's studio. It is a small shop that is owned a older gentleman. I really like the type of techniques he uses. He focuses mainly on dinnerware. I thought that was good as he is really making things that are useful and purposeful. He also demonstrated some of his techniques on a wheel. I now wish I would have taken pictures to share. This will be another place for me to get dd1 into to do some work in exchange for some hands on time.

After wards we tired to head to a park, but the sky was overcast, the wind blew strongly, and we all got cold quickly. We headed back to the house.

We were expecting company, so the rest of the day not much traditional school work was going on. The in law came by. I was so concerned about this visit. I worked myself into a tizzy, stressed myself out. The visit went fine. I know silly me. Didn't I read somewhere, sometime, something like Don't be anxious....oh miserable (wo)man that I am. So now I am tired. All that stress is released and I just want to sleep.

So I'm going to lay down for a little bit. And relax.